That’s just who I am.
I jump to conclusions and act fast.
That’s just who I am.
So I guess that sums me up. Now who are you?
Today I was content hungry. With the recent launch of Introverted Girl Boss, I naturally feel obligated to give. Give content, give hope and give trust that as an introvert, your voice can be heard. My mind had a thousands thoughts on content. My online planner was full of ideas. My phone even had a list of ideas in the notes section. So what did I do when it was time to work on the content? Go with a whim of an idea that wasn’t even on the list.
I COPIED SOMEONES IDEA.
Earlier today I was browsing snapchat and a Youtuber that I follow posted a snap that went something like this…
“You guys have asked for it so its finally here! My gratitude calendar will be available for November 1st!”
With that I jumped to conclusions and said well if her audience wants it, mine must want it too! I spent an hour after work trying to create a gratitude calendar for my audience. I couldn’t figure out certain things which led to frustration. At the hour mark I wanted to give up. Is this me? What is this calendar giving my audience that will benefit me in the long run?
NOTHING. NADDA. WHAT AM I EVEN DOING?
Sitting back in my chair slumped over in defeat, I said these words out loud…
WELL THAT’S JUST WHO I AM. I JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS AND ACT FAST.
Now normally, I would shut down my computer and call it a night. Letting my mind take over was a normal occurrence. However, tonight was different. Last week I picked up a book from my local library called Flawd (by Emily-Anne Rigal) and even though I’m only 50 pages in, my mind is already shifting.
That’s just who I am?
Am I defined by jumping to conclusions and acting fast?
Will that be listed under the definition of Jessica Shaw?
NO, NO and NO. You see, that’s not me at all. That is just how my brain is programmed because that’s the only way I knew (yes past-tense because your girl isn’t there anymore). With the book Flawd you learn that you are NOT defined by your flaws and you can learn to change them.
I jumped up from my desk and said I NEED A BREAK. Keeping myself busy and away from my desk actually helped save me. Flawd kept popping into my head and I kept reminding myself, that is not me. I can find a way to make it work.
I was reminding myself what Introverted Girl Boss is over and over in my head. Creating a gratitude calendar for my audience is not the road I want to go down. I want something deep, make you jump from your chair deep. With that 20 minutes away from my desk I had it solved.
WHO ARE YOU?
You see, without reading Flawd I would have chalked it up to I jump to conclusion and I act fast. So fast that I end up wasting my time. That would have been that and I would have accomplished nothing.
Who are you is my next project for Introverted Girl Boss. Every person needs to realize they are not defined by their “flaws”. You can accomplish anything you set out to do. The first step is realizing your brain is a powerful part of you that defines your destiny.
Lets work on that first. Then you can take on the world.